Born nearly deaf in a Chicago ghetto, Loren contends with poverty, drugs, prejudice, and terrifying violence. This murky landscape initiates his lifelong search for love, God, and truth. Answers to his insatiable curiosity about life, death, and war are rare, but dreams and inner dialogues pose provocative questions that guide his journey. Are memories, dreams, and unconscious promptings only opiates of a mind desperately coping with a chaotic, hopeless world? Or do they contain one's truth? The conclusion of this poignant search is astonishing. 'Poignant, funny, tragic, and uplifting, Loren Pedersen's new book will be many things to many readers: compelling true-life story, inspirational and cautionary tale, psychological self-help manual, and a chronicle of the second half of the tumultuous twentieth century.